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If you know or have listened to the song of the same title by the Goo Goo Dolls, you most likely would have an idea of what this entry might be about. A fraction of the the song goes, “Ecstasy is all you need, living in the big machine, now. Oh you're so vain, now your world is way too fast. Nothing's real and nothing lasts, and I'm aware, I'm in love but you don't care. Turn your anger into lust, I'm still here but you don't trust at all. And I'll be waiting. Heaven, sex and loneliness, take what's yours and leave the rest so I'll survive. God it's good to be alive. And I'm torn in pieces, I'm blind and waiting for. My heart is reeling, I'm blind and waiting for you.”
This particular first part of the song, if I may say so, most fittingly illustrates my condition right now.
It seems that time flew me by so fast. Happy New Year! It looks just like yesterday when I was all raring to leave 2007 behind. 2007 was a bad, bad year for me, except for the part when I was able to visit and spend time with my bestfriend Apple in Tokyo, and the part where I visited family in Manila, and when I went to Seoul. Other than these, 2007 was a bitch. 2007 saw a year of many “posers” in my life, people who pretended to be nice and all offering supposedly genuine friendship only to rob me off of what I already have. But hey, the person to bring me down has not been born yet. Thank you very much. So, in 2008, I peaced out with irrelevant people in my life, people whom I thought, while looking back, did me more harm than good. And please, I’m tired of all the pretenses, and if I were to settle for these people for friends, I might as well just settle for butterflies. I moved on, cut my losses, and started anew. 2008 saw a brighter and better Andi. As if my life can’t wait.
Talk about impatience, after having been heartbroken a number of times in less than a year, I felt like I was on ground zero, and I couldn’t seem to wait to see myself get back on my feet and start walking forward. I was heartbroken, I was betrayed and as if these don’t make enough, I have had people in my life who instead of pulling me back up managed to give me kicks and jolts while I was already on rock bottom. But then again, once you reach rock bottom, there’s nowhere else to go but up. I grew anxious and had wanted nothing but to get my life in order, fast.
So I was able to get back on my feet, but I wanted to move fast, I wanted my life to get better, and to move at the speed of light because of the anticipation of what I was to discover once it suddenly stops. Back then, I wanted to know what’ll happen later, tomorrow, a year from now. Generally speaking, we’re always rushing things because maybe we’re in a hurry to get somewhere but when we finally get there we realize it isn’t as great as we thought, after all. And maybe we regret or wish at that point that we should’ve taken things a step a time. In that way we would’ve appreciated getting there instead. In between, as we move from point A to point Z, we miss out on a lot of things. And those seemingly immaterial instances would’ve probably carried more weight if we looked closer or slowed down. These, ladies and gents are the stuff regrets are made of.
Going at the speed only second to The Flash can go isn’t bad. It’s good when you’re all caught up in the moment. But when it stops spinning, you tend to get dizzy. The year 2008 was fast for me, but I am proud nonetheless to say that I have accomplished whatever it is I had wanted to accomplish right from the very beginning. I am a better and happier person now, with being careful as who to allow into my life.
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There’s nothing wrong with being nice to everyone, but, I think I should be most true to only a limited few. 2008 witnessed how my friendship with Nairi took another level—she after all, is my bestfriend, and she will be the first person to wear a genuine Heir Apparent by Andi gown to her wedding. Janice and Mary are definitely my Filipina queens, and Talin and Stephanie are like the younger sisters I truly wish I had. I have cultivated friendships and harnessed good working relationships with people from both work and school that I can only be grateful. I feel like I am closer to Zaira now than I was a few years back. We don’t get to hang out as much, but I am comfortable with telling her certain goings on in my life. There’s no denying it but I feel that Michelle and I have become closer, what with me being able to open up about everything work-related to her, conveying my emotions to her and such. Jelsomina is still everyone’s favorite manager though. Veronica and I still have a long way to go as far as friendship, and as for Bonnie, yeah, we don’t talk as much anymore probably because of the different schedules we get assigned with, but I’m confident that, even if we don’t seem to be as close as we used to be, we still are going to be good friends for the rest of my life.
As for my friends in school—Jiya, Rissa, Trang, Jiayi, Andrea and Taide—I thank the wonderful gift of friendship, collectively you are group with no star complexion or weight to throw around. And with you girls, I feel safe. I can’t wait for the coming quarters that will provide all of us growth.
And to you, I just can’t wait for my life to start with you in it. You are the best Christmas gift I had ever had in the whole 26 years of my existence. And yeah, life might continue to move fast, but with you, I don’t mind taking a few long pauses to savor every moment I spend and share with you.
Yeah, 2008 seemed fast, but it was fun because I was able to do a lot of things. As in busy. But come the final days of the year that was, bam! I found myself with nothing to do. And as a result, I thought too much. Thinking of how I should start making decisions and sticking to them. It stopped spinning, and there I was, dizzy.
Maybe, what I’m trying to say is that life is fun when it’s fastpaced but there are grim impediments, too. We tend to overlook and put behind us certain moments we deem minute, but these minute moments are the ones that we wish we had spent more time on, ‘no? Great moments do pass us by… and at a blink of an eye everything can change.
This particular first part of the song, if I may say so, most fittingly illustrates my condition right now.
It seems that time flew me by so fast. Happy New Year! It looks just like yesterday when I was all raring to leave 2007 behind. 2007 was a bad, bad year for me, except for the part when I was able to visit and spend time with my bestfriend Apple in Tokyo, and the part where I visited family in Manila, and when I went to Seoul. Other than these, 2007 was a bitch. 2007 saw a year of many “posers” in my life, people who pretended to be nice and all offering supposedly genuine friendship only to rob me off of what I already have. But hey, the person to bring me down has not been born yet. Thank you very much. So, in 2008, I peaced out with irrelevant people in my life, people whom I thought, while looking back, did me more harm than good. And please, I’m tired of all the pretenses, and if I were to settle for these people for friends, I might as well just settle for butterflies. I moved on, cut my losses, and started anew. 2008 saw a brighter and better Andi. As if my life can’t wait.
Talk about impatience, after having been heartbroken a number of times in less than a year, I felt like I was on ground zero, and I couldn’t seem to wait to see myself get back on my feet and start walking forward. I was heartbroken, I was betrayed and as if these don’t make enough, I have had people in my life who instead of pulling me back up managed to give me kicks and jolts while I was already on rock bottom. But then again, once you reach rock bottom, there’s nowhere else to go but up. I grew anxious and had wanted nothing but to get my life in order, fast.
So I was able to get back on my feet, but I wanted to move fast, I wanted my life to get better, and to move at the speed of light because of the anticipation of what I was to discover once it suddenly stops. Back then, I wanted to know what’ll happen later, tomorrow, a year from now. Generally speaking, we’re always rushing things because maybe we’re in a hurry to get somewhere but when we finally get there we realize it isn’t as great as we thought, after all. And maybe we regret or wish at that point that we should’ve taken things a step a time. In that way we would’ve appreciated getting there instead. In between, as we move from point A to point Z, we miss out on a lot of things. And those seemingly immaterial instances would’ve probably carried more weight if we looked closer or slowed down. These, ladies and gents are the stuff regrets are made of.
Going at the speed only second to The Flash can go isn’t bad. It’s good when you’re all caught up in the moment. But when it stops spinning, you tend to get dizzy. The year 2008 was fast for me, but I am proud nonetheless to say that I have accomplished whatever it is I had wanted to accomplish right from the very beginning. I am a better and happier person now, with being careful as who to allow into my life.
<a href="http://s300.photobucket.com/albums/n
There’s nothing wrong with being nice to everyone, but, I think I should be most true to only a limited few. 2008 witnessed how my friendship with Nairi took another level—she after all, is my bestfriend, and she will be the first person to wear a genuine Heir Apparent by Andi gown to her wedding. Janice and Mary are definitely my Filipina queens, and Talin and Stephanie are like the younger sisters I truly wish I had. I have cultivated friendships and harnessed good working relationships with people from both work and school that I can only be grateful. I feel like I am closer to Zaira now than I was a few years back. We don’t get to hang out as much, but I am comfortable with telling her certain goings on in my life. There’s no denying it but I feel that Michelle and I have become closer, what with me being able to open up about everything work-related to her, conveying my emotions to her and such. Jelsomina is still everyone’s favorite manager though. Veronica and I still have a long way to go as far as friendship, and as for Bonnie, yeah, we don’t talk as much anymore probably because of the different schedules we get assigned with, but I’m confident that, even if we don’t seem to be as close as we used to be, we still are going to be good friends for the rest of my life.
As for my friends in school—Jiya, Rissa, Trang, Jiayi, Andrea and Taide—I thank the wonderful gift of friendship, collectively you are group with no star complexion or weight to throw around. And with you girls, I feel safe. I can’t wait for the coming quarters that will provide all of us growth.
And to you, I just can’t wait for my life to start with you in it. You are the best Christmas gift I had ever had in the whole 26 years of my existence. And yeah, life might continue to move fast, but with you, I don’t mind taking a few long pauses to savor every moment I spend and share with you.
Yeah, 2008 seemed fast, but it was fun because I was able to do a lot of things. As in busy. But come the final days of the year that was, bam! I found myself with nothing to do. And as a result, I thought too much. Thinking of how I should start making decisions and sticking to them. It stopped spinning, and there I was, dizzy.
Maybe, what I’m trying to say is that life is fun when it’s fastpaced but there are grim impediments, too. We tend to overlook and put behind us certain moments we deem minute, but these minute moments are the ones that we wish we had spent more time on, ‘no? Great moments do pass us by… and at a blink of an eye everything can change.
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